Finally, I have decided to open up about myself and apologize publicly. I know I'm evading, but it's only for good. By this topic and further posts, you will see it. I'm ready to accept any punishment I deserve. What I'm saying is deep bottom from me and please be patient to read it.

I've been asked by BoutCheetah people, "Why do I act this way?", I act this way because I can. It's about having fun right? So I created a fabulous alter ego. This is BoutCheetah after all! Of course I have another reason, and this reason is why I even bother to log in every day.

Few years ago, I was going through one of my most depressing moments in my life. Bullied every day and being all lonely. I didn't have much going on for me so I just sat in front of my computer and watch funny videos. I then stumbled upon BoutCheetah and found it. I was skeptical at first, but as I played my first game after I made my account I had fun. It was awesome! The game was something about destroying robots with another robots. By today's standards, it would be just a great place, but I saw different.

So now why am I talking about my first time playing BoutCheetah? It is because it was the beginning of a great sentiment.

I was at a social place in BoutCheetah. I was in an argument with some scrub. This was during the time when the only words in my vocabulary were "noob" and "stupid". Unfortunately, I was losing this argument and it seems I might ragequit...again. But suddenly, some guy (not mentioning him) came in and told the other guy off with such wit and class. After some time, I asked him how he'd done it. He told me that it was all about "finding the humor in everything". That quote stuck with me ever since. And ever since that day, I can see the humor in most of my tragic and lonely moments. I brightened up. And I stood up to my bullies one day. I tried to be witty after he insulted my mom, but failed. And I ended up getting into another fight and beaten up....again. Fortunately, the principle was lenient on my side so he let me off with a warning and suspended the bully for a week. After I got home, I thought about what just happened. I laughed at myself for being so silly! Saying those things trying to be witty and all.

This new perspective on things helped me get through some hard moments in my life. I sometimes play BC just to vent my emotions either by playing some players, causing arguments at social places, and watch some incredible matchs by players, or other awesome things. So basically, BC has become one my tools for me to cope. And goodness it's a good tool to use to cope. Not only has BC helped me through my hard times, but it also inspired me to do better at things. I can't really explain, but it's the feeling of accomplishment. Of wonder. Of excitement. All of it expressed through the enjoyment and hard work placed into the places in BC.

The time I spent playing BC and interacting with the community changed my characteristics for the betterment. I became more insightful, attentive, appreciative, optimistic, and overall less sociably awkward. This actually transitioned well to how I act in real life. And I made good friends. I felt less insecure about things and I can open myself up even more. Problem with this is that I might place too much feeling into BC. Sometimes it shows through flaming and arguing.

Despite that, I love BC and how it has changed me. This may be just a game to most of you and this lament may be just another TL;DR thread for you to troll on, but this is sentimental to me.
So why did I type it here? Because I love BC so much and it felt appropriate to place it here. I guess I'm done here.

Why? Because I can. And I am just that fabulous. Have a cup of mocha, darling.